HOW ARE YOU, SZES?

(My week: Mostly dull with streaks of red)

HEY THERE MY VIRTUAL FRIENDS!

How are you guys doing?

Firstly, I'd like to sincerely apologise for the lack of update and for the empty promises I've made about publishing the drafts soon, soon, soon but soon just never comes.

/bow/

Szes is truly sorry about that.

As you can see from the photo above, it's in black and white - dull, with streaks of red. Let me give you a hug if you can infer and understand, of not, let me still give you a hug. And oh gosh, look at those dark eye rings... Go on, go on and scrutinise my flaws, LOL.

/sigh/

I'm here today because since I'm having a fever, I have to stay home and miss school, which means a little free time for Szes to blog. Yay, but, 

THIS SUCKS.

I used to love skipping school but now, I want to go to school and I hate skipping school. I've learned from my previous lesson, I think. In addition, I think I'm a little more motivated this semester. For now.

/oops/

I hope this motivation will last me till at least the common tests so at least I can attend school and finish my tutorials and revisions ON TIME.

Life's been really hectic ever since school have started for me - coping up with weekly tutorials, my health etc. That compounding pile of tutorial work, sleeping issues - yes, they're back.

First few weeks of school were injected with a lot of positivity - sleeping early, waking up early, morning workouts, cooking breakfast for myself before school.

I miss that morning routine so much :( 

Now, I can hardly even wake up in time for school because I've only been able to sleep at 3-6AM in the morning despite being in bed at 1+am. I don't want to rely on medication to sleep, I need to do something about it. /sigh/

Despite the fact that I always wake up at 7AM when school starts at 11AM, I'm still late. I ought to work on being punctual since my attendance is pretty much OKAY now.

This week has been a fucked up week for me.

Yes, I said fucked up,

deeply fucked up.

I apologise for the vulgarity but.... sometimes, there we can hardly find any adjectives for us to use to describe some things, right?

I don't really feel like elaborating in detail but, this week's been really hard on me than usual.

Eye infection + fever + sleeping issue + r/s problems + friendship problems + piles of unfinished tutorials and projects and notes. 

Everything in a week.

It's physically tiring but I'm emotionally, mentally drained.

Nothing beats being emotionally and mentally drained. Nothing.

At least when I'm sick, I have Idris to be there and my friends to care. Or when I have lots of work to do, I can finish them by studying out till late at Starbucks with someone I can study productively with. Or I can finish my work without feeling irritated/miserable because of the dizzy spells/sore, itchy eye/runny nose, chills and unbearably swollen throat (yes, swollen).

I just can't, ugh 

I hate this week so much

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- drafted on Friday, 15th November 2013 

Sunday, 17th November 2013: 8:24PM

I'm now okay, up and running, alive but barely breathing. I hope things will get better soon. 

Things will get better, yes, they can only be getting better - nothing else.  

Thanks for being here, my friends.
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Tuesday, 19th November 2013: 3:46AM
See what I mean, hahahahaha that's why I've got so many drafts - because I multitask too much and the posts eventually slipped out of my mind.

Time to publish this!!!

Szes