CHANGES

Hey guys,

Look at the time now, gosh. Need to sleep... Actually, revise for my POA test tomorrow.

Sigh, Poly is a lie Poly is a lie Poly is a lie. I can repeat that for a million times. 

So damn drained even though I woke up late today, even though I skipped school (again) yesterday.

No matter how late I wake up, I'll still be tired real quick sigh. What's wrong with me?

Ate something wrong and had runs this morning. 

I HATE MY STOMACH.

Okay, to the crux of this post...

CHANGES - I desperately need make some changes to my(self). 

If I said this to the people who knows me super well, they'd be like:

but, THIS TIME, I'm:

"Not kidding."

I'm veryyyyyyyyy serious. 

I just feel like ranting and posting this on my blog so as to remind myself and since it's on the net, everybody/anybody can see this.

If I don't change, I'll be mocked/teased. 

1) Attend school more often

I skip school almost every week. 

Reason being, I can't wake up in the damn morning and I prefer studying myself rather than attending boring+almost-unproductive lectures. 

That's why when I skip school, I'd still do some self-studying. So, partly some good in skipping school...but I just feel that I need to have good attendance and participation in school.

2) No more last minute revisions

Since young, I'm forever a last-minute person for almost everything, especially for exams.

I did quite badly for my Common Test for the last term and I was xxxxxxx disappointed in myself. Sigh ah, need to buck up, tie my shoelace etc etc etc.

Believe I can do it man! 

3) Be more/better self-disciplined

What I've been lacking since I-don't-know-how-many-decades-ago.

Sigh, I really really really seriously need to freaking have self-discipline, if not, I can never be successful. Tsk. 

Lacking self-discipline caused me to:

-Skip school

-Do last minute revisions

-Sleep late, wake up late

-Have bad results

-ETC

I MUST CHANGE!!!!!!!!!!!

4) Practise what I preached.

Sorry, I just needed to rant and do some self-reflecting. 

I don't want to look back into my teenage life and regret what I should have done to have a better life in ten years' time. 

Goodbye, and good luck! 

Love, 

Szes