SOME THINGS TO ADDRESS...

Hi. I'm nineteen.

STOP IT

October 2014

"Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?"

I've been thinking about a lot of things this holiday. Lately, especially.

Why is it that a simple, straight-forward sentence/conversation/gesture can be viewed in many different negative ways? Can someone please tell me why?
It's not just something that happened to me or just recently. It has always been like this, a norm.

• Why is it that a simple reminder about a subject that is related to something sensitive (e.g. loan, money) be viewed as "stingy", "desperate", "selfish"?
It might just be a simple reminder, maybe he/she needed her stuffs back urgently, maybe it's not even hers to begin with?  

• Why is it that a simple, sweet gesture of gifting, treating someone be of having another hidden agenda?

• Why is it that a "I'm sorry, I don't think I can make it. I have something on." be seen as an excuse? 

• Why is it that hugging someone of the opposite gender mean that she's an easy girl? 

I tried so hard to shut myself out from all of this. I tried so hard to ignore this. I tried so hard to forget about this. I tried so hard to be optimistic about this.

But I can't.

Sometimes, there's just no line for you to read in between. Nothing at all. Interpret that gesture from upfront,  maybe, just maybe - and probably, it's just that simple.

On an brighter note, I finally managed to sit down still for 2 hours to blog out this post and even [ publish ] it  I end up not.